I'd like to say that I've been remiss in writing because I've been so involved in other enjoyable activities. Sadly, no. Since Sunday I've done little more than return from the hospital and go back to work. The headache returned on Monday, and has been with me since. I'm not sure where it's coming from, whether it is the chemo or the spinal tap, but it returned. My initial predictions of a headache-free cycle were premature. Add to that, this round has been more brutal than the previous three.
I sabotaged myself this time around, I hate to say. I was given a patch to wear to stave off the pain, and this worked so well, I took it off on Wednesday after my return home. I figured that the headache was gone for good, but it was really just the medicine working as it should.
In short, I shouldn't have taken it off. Yesterday and today have been unpleasant in the extreme. I guess I'll know better for next time :)
Not all has been bad. Jane and I celebrated our 10th anniversary today, and just being with her and the girls tonight for movie night was the best anniversary present I could think of. Spending time with my family is my favorite thing to do these days.
I'm sure it sounds cliche, but cancer has really made me pull closer and think more about what is important, and how I want to prioritize my life and time. I get so much more enjoyment now out of the little things that the girls do, and just hearing them speak than I think I ever got before. I suppose that it's just a little harder to take your whole world for granted.
Of course, it's also made me emotional, short-tempered, and flabby - but I guess there are trade-offs to everything. :)
So many thanks again to all of my friends, neighbors, and family who have asked and helped and given support and encouragement. It truly means a great deal to me, especially when I'm feeling low - which happens a lot more often than I'd like to admit.
Happy anniversary, Patrick. Thanks for keeping us up to date. Praying for you. MT.
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